Saturday, May 29, 2004


"Adventurer: one who never reaches a destination" Seorang petualang adalah seorang yang tidak pernah sampai. Am I one? Dunno. These days I'm never sure of who I am anymore. I can be this but I can be that too. A confused blend of ideals and realities. Yeah, sometimes I can't separate which is me and which is the me I want to be. Finished Da Vinci Code today. Started reading Mir's Importance of Being Earnest but no hot burning passion to reading anything. Weird. A good deed done out of responsibility, would it get its reward? I do that a lot. Sounds bad, huh..... I feel like a jerk: my grandma fractured her arm and nobody else's home so I had to take care of her and (this is hard to admit) I'm not very gentle or condescending. I felt more like I should do what I did but I wasn't too happy about it... .... To think in retrospect and really registering what I wrote (what I DID), it was really bad..... I'm hating myself. But even now, I can't imagine myself being so totally selfless and attend to all her needs. Ashamed with myself... Eugh. Checked my grades today. Bad news: two A- and two A (and two Ps). Eugh. Well I suppose that's what I should expect for missing almost half of lectures all semester long. But still... eugh. A reminder: can't be too confident with myself. Too much pride, I guess... =b
Rlynn wandered here @ 5/29/2004 10:34:00 PM
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