::ethereal dreamer::

     

           
           
           
           

Hi! Welcome to my world, guys. Posted here are my not-so-daily journal.

Feel free to post any comments, suggestions, or questions!!

ABOUT ME:

Name: Arlin, aka.Ogi
Location: California (no more), in Bandung now
Birthday: 17 Nov 1982
Obsessions: having a life of peace, constant learning
Currently Reading: Bible, Le Petit Nicolas, Anna Karenina
Dreams: to have peace...and love

Wednesday, May 19, 2004


Pernahkah merasakan kekosongan hati, di mana mimpi tinggal sesosok bayang dari masa lalu? Ada teman berkata, "mungkin cuma mimpi buat kembali." Kita tertawa, bercanda, pergi kuliah, kerja, bercerita.... tapi terasa sepert bukan kita. Di dalam ada rongga hampa menganga, di mana rutinitas menjadi mimpi buruk, dan jadi benci pada diri sendiri. Di mana mimpi dan idealisme tertinggal jauh tak terjangkau. Terlihat bayang-bayang masa lalu yang menghantui. Ingin kembali, ingin kembali jadi manusia, dengan mimpi dan asa, dengan tangis dan tawa, yang sejati dan menusuk hati. Ingin lepas dari kungkung kehampaan. Ingin menangis, tapi air mata hanya curah dalam hati. Ingin berkata, bercerita, tapi kata hilang dalam kekosongan. I felt the anguish, heard the muted cry, the silent prayer... been there, suffered that, known the pain. Looking for a place, fumbling for a promised space of peace and happiness. ... Always fearing that nothing is waiting there. Hoping... and dreading. Can't stop walking although believing that hope is vain. When all is muted, what life are we living? What path are we walking? A laugh that never reaches the heart. Tears that never reach the eyes. Disembodied, disenchanted, disillusioned. I'm a misty shadow, trapped in the past, gliding in ethereal body, feeling out of place in the present. Longing for the past when life is painted in bright colors. When I am me. Do you still believe in Life? Always Love You, from America
Rlynn wandered here @ 5/19/2004 01:20:00 AM
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