::ethereal dreamer::



Hi! Welcome to my world, guys. Posted here are my not-so-daily journal.

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Name: Arlin, aka.Ogi
Location: California (no more), in Bandung now
Birthday: 17 Nov 1982
Obsessions: having a life of peace, constant learning
Currently Reading: Bible, Le Petit Nicolas, Anna Karenina
Dreams: to have peace...and love

Monday, June 14, 2004

When we're in pain, we know we exist, bcoz it's an arrow that shoots straight to the heart, searing, blinding, maddening, inspiring... while happiness is the very lightness of being, like feathery fluffy thing in pastel almost too good to believe in. Why is it so hard to believe in happiness? To make ourselves dedicate our lives for its pursuit? We are cowards. We chose to be human, to be mortal, to be earth-bound, to feel pain, because we can't believe in happiness. We are too afraid to surrender. In pain we found a cocoon. justifying ourselves that we should feel pain. In truth, the pulsating vibrating life of pain is there because we seek harder for happiness. Only, we are too afraid to believe that we really deserve that happiness. We can't believe we can be freed from want. In the end happiness eludes us. We bask in pain, ever wondering if happiness really wasn't meant for us. I'm still wondering now. to: E.
Rlynn wandered here @ 6/14/2004 12:40:00 AM